cockatielgirl

Back in Sydney

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 06:32:04 GMT

So i am back in Sydney and i am actually very happy about it. The wedding was absolutely amazing and very intense definitely one of THE most incredible experiences of my life. Being a bridesmaid is pretty full on and i now understand why they have them- you literally share the emotions the bride is going thru and it's so intense. I just kept saying that over and over yesterday "that was so intense" "that was so full on" crazy................. i cannot wait to show everyone my photos i might post some on here later but i can't be bothered right now and there are just so many to show. I truly understand why people get married now it's so cool! Speaking of marriage C and i had a talk the other day and agreed that by the end of 2009 we will be married how exciting. So i am really feeling good now and ready for the year to come so bring it on.

Sun, 25 Feb 2007 00:53:18 GMT

I know it has been a really long time since i updated but things haven't been great for me lately. So i am up home atm just having a relax before the wedding on Sunday that i am bridesmaid at. I am feeling a little nervous about it and i'm not sure why but who cares right? feel the fear and do it anyway! So i was enrolled in 4 subjects at uni but have decided to drop back to 3 i think the memory of last semester is just a little too fresh in my mind. Uni will be good i love it in a lot of ways. I'm also thinking of joining a team sport and i am going to start Tai Chi at the end of March. Yes i am getting it back together peoples so watch out! Anyway i'll try to update again soon.
Bye

IT at Macquarie Uni

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 02:01:25 GMT

The It department and everything associated with it at Macquarie sucks so fucking badly. I have been trying off and on since 6:30 this morning to register in classes with no success. They have no idea what they are doing the website should be equipped to handle thousands and thousands of students. This is so so so so frustrating.

quandry of a relationship

Sat, 13 Jan 2007 23:08:38 GMT

I read one of my friends posts which got me thinking about relationships and my personal viewpoint on many of the complications that they behold. In a relationship there are always times where you'll feel a little bored, a little bit too content and you get a bit of cabin fever. As someone who has been in a relationship now for over 4 years i think i can have some authority over this matter. This is only a natural way to feel and there is nothing wrong with it people freak out when they feel this way like omg there is someting wrong maybe i'm not in love anymore and so on and so forth. Of course if one does feel this way all of the time then somethin could be definitely wrong but every so often it's just normal. I always find that it is really effective when i tell my b'friend about it- you know why because it instantly takes the power out of it- the bad thoughts can't plauge you anymore because you've told the one person in your life that seems to be the direct cause of the problem. I learnt something really important about love a while ago which just really hit home with me it was from captain corelli's mandolin and it was the old guy talkin about what love is. He likened to an ocean saying that it comes and goes with tides, waves and weather this seemed a really important message about love because many people i think are under the impression that it should be the same all the time. I think from this message i saw that a partner should alwyas be a best friend first because those feelings of love aren't going to be there all of the time. I find this empowering becuase it means that i don't have to panic when things aren't going so well i can just try and work through it to the best of my ability and just have faith that it'll all be back soon. Of course this means that you need to be committed to the relationship- to see it through all the shit and if you are not willing to go through all that with the person than you aren't ready for a long term thing. I also heard another thing about love that i really liked- it was that someone important in your life is there to be a witness to everything that you do, to share in all the stuff that goes on and watch you every step of the way. Because sometimes when it all boils down to it realtionships are just about sharing your experiences with someone else. I know everybody says it over and over again that relationships need communication but there is a reason for that and it's not just communication on a general level it's communicating everything you need to no matter how deep and dark that may be. The reason i have been in a relationship for this long and am very happy in it is simply due to one thing- communication. Now i know despite all that i have said that there are many things that go on that are more complicated many reasons why things may not be working but i just thought i'd share some of my personal experineces and philosophies that have many a time got me through. I'm off to the beach- so excited!
L xxoo

My Birthday

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 21:33:47 GMT

It's my 24th birthday, can't believe it i'm getting old. So what am i up to today? well not much really- c is making me french toast to eat in bed, then we're going to the beach and then c is going to work at 1:30pm and i'll just hang out here. We always celebrate a birthweek so i'll be doing stuff until next thursday. We are going out for dinner and we'll go to the movies a couple of times than i'm going to have a party next weekend. Wow that sounds like a lot now that i write it out! So what have i done over the last year that needs mentioning? well i survived uni much to my absolute shock, lived in Sydney for another year (not that that takes any effort because i love this place with all my heart), a few engagements and marriages took place- Lol's engaged, Nat's engaged, Angus is engaged and Nicole got married. My Grandmother died although technically that wasn't included in my birth year as it happened on the 9th of Jan. Over all actually last year was not that great! but i am determined to make this year really wonderful. My colour for this year is yellow and my keyword is enjoyment after all. What else? I went to Woodford which i have already mentioned which was truly amazing. Oh how could i forget- got my pet cockatiel Sooty which has filled a hole in my life and brought mine and c's relationship to a new level. We also went camping together for the first time. I have also had plenty of sex, plenty of drink and plenty of food the best trifecta of all. There have been many moments of stress where i thought i would self combust. For the first time in my life i have started going to the gym and i worked out that over 2006 i was probably fit for about 8 out of 12 months which is pretty darn good. Managed to get a few powder runs in this year at a closed run at Perisher which resulted in absolute exhaustion due to all the trekking you have to do when a run is closed- but so so worth it. I also developed a love for indie music this year after finally becoming a massive fan of Triple J which has filled another gap in my life. Over all for me i love getting older cause the older i get the better i feel within myself and the happier i become- i am never afraid of getting old and actually look forward to every year that passes. Get back to me when i'm approaching 50! Love everyone who touches my life in any shape or form and helps to make every year more and more beautiful thank you so much for being in my life for whatever reason, i know that everyone i meet, have met and will meet in the future is there for a reason and i only hope that i can return the favour every once in a while. Goodbye 23, bring on 24 and 2007.
Namaste
L xxoo

NYE 2006

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 01:26:41 GMT

Ok NYE 2006 was the best of my life............. hands down. Woodford was THE most magical place i loved it so much. We are all going back next year for two nights this time. The Resin Dogs were so good at midnight. There was also 3 minutes silence at 11:30pm to allow everyone to reflect on friends or family they may have lost and to count their blessings of 2006. It was the most amazing thing- 25,0000 people being completely silent for 3 minutes, i didn't think it was possible... it blew my mind. So plan is to be back in Sydney by Sunday but last night our car died so i don't know what the verdict will be. I'll keep everyone up to date.
L xxoo

Yay it's over

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 22:27:32 GMT

Xmas was lots of fun but by the time yesterday afternoon came around i was so tired and was in much need of some me time. I am now in Brissy recovering to start the partying all over again. I have a hens night tomorrow night followed by recovery the day after that, than i travel up to Woodford for NYE and camp there the night. The first day of the year will be spent at C's G'pa's house for his birthday so i need to be in respectable order for that. Then i don't know for a few days but i'll be traveling back down to Sydney on the 6th to arrive there on the 7th. I had the best sleep last night and i finally feel refreshed. Bring on the new year yay!
xxoo

Stolen from Queer Housewife who stole it from Urban Geisha!

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 21:43:20 GMT

1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
Went camping with my boyfriend.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? .
I can't remember what they were and i will be making more for next year which will include getting fit again.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope, although there were a few times there where i thought i might be!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes my Grandmother.

5. What countries did you visit?
Vietnam

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
More time with my boy and more motivation at uni.

7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Mmmmmmmmm i'm really shit with dates but something memorable would be when the croc hunter died.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Surviving it.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Putting myself through the worst semester ever.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nope.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Clothes and shoes- i love shoes.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My boy who struggled through the craziest year of uni in his life while having me in the backgroung being my usual demanding self.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and/or depressed?
No one's.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Living life, food and clothes.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Woodford festival for New Years.

16. What songs will always remind you of 2006?
Hilltops, The Grates.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? It changes all the time
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner
iii. richer or poorer? Poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Fulfilling my own needs above others. Snowboarding.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Nothing.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Xmas with my Mum and her fam and boxing day with my Dad.
22. Did you fall in love in 2006?
Yep i fall in love all the time- over and over.

23. How many one-night stands?
None.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
House definitely and Tripping Over and so many i love TV!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No
26. What was the best book you read?
So many can't choose.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
The Grates, The Dresden Dolls, Sarah Blasko, Mia Dyson

28. What did you want and get?
A pair of converses.

29. What did you want and not get?
So much! towels, stuff for the house.

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Devil Wears Prada, Brokeback.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was 23 and i had a party at Kangaroo Point in Brisbane and got really tanked.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Nothing.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
I'm pretty eclectic so i change all the time i definitely became more comfortable with wearing out there stuff and really expressing my mood for the day!
34. What kept you sane?
My sis, my friends my boy.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I always fancy Johnny Depp he is so godamn hot, not fair that you said it first K!

Will it blend?

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 02:10:13 GMT

Everybody please check out this website www.willitblend.com, it is sooooooooooo funny!
L

Bastardisation of Iron Chef

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 11:40:20 GMT

Tonight i saw a show that broke my heart :( it is the American version of Iron Chef the description of the original can be seen here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Iron_Chef. The Americans have managed to twist this show round and miss out on it's original appeal. I have watched this show for many years now spending many a Sat night having a few beers and watching it on SBS. I do not like the new version i saw tonight and will probably not watch it again.......... it is the end of a chapter in my life. On another note i like these three names for my future daughters Coco, Willow and Zara, what does everyone else think? would love to hear comments from whoever.
Namaste
Lxxoo

Winging it at uni

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 06:57:10 GMT

I passed all my subjects I am in a state of absolute disbelief!

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 22:18:42 GMT

Ok last night was the first night that it finally hit me that i don't have to do study for a long time. I was sitting there watching TV and i started feeling guilty- thinking that i should be studying then i realised i don't have to- i love love love when that happens. Atm i am on a detox no drinking until at least Christmas. I have done this before and i think it lasted for about 3 months- i lost weight and reagined many childhood memories that have since been erased again. Reasons for this are: I cannot drink like i used to i get very hungover unless i'm drinking my beloved vodka. Additionally i have been drinking a little too much lately and feel that i need to give my liver a break. I can just hear my liver now (like on the episode of the Simpsons last night) going yay, except i won't punch it like homer did. I know it's been a long time sicne i wrote a decent entry and it feels good to be back. Keep those holidays rollin.
L xxoo

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 00:26:43 GMT

Omg i am finished my second year of uni, this is crazy and i'm realy hungover! Time just flys doesn't it?

Home Time

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 20:18:17 GMT

I'm going home this afternoon!! yay. Can't wait to see the family and relax and refresh. I won't be back til Mon afternoon- don't even feel like coming back at all really. Work is kinda turning to shit don't get me wrong i like the job and the girls i work with but "shift supervisors" have been assigned and a new manager has started and between the managers 30 hours a week and the guaruanteed 15 to 30 hours a week the supervisors will get i'm pretty much going to be left with nothing- can't pay bills and rent with nothin! So i think it's time to start looking for another job even tho i don't really want to. i cannot believe how frickin cold it is what is it with this city? just when i start getting excited cause of the 30 degree days this is what happens. Anyways off to have a cup of tea.

L xxoo

Like a blister in the sun...........

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 21:55:55 GMT

What is with all the cloudy doom and gloom? I am dying for a really hot day while it is handy for those long hard days of study i just can't wait for summer. In other news i am travelling up north to Murwillumbah my home town: http://www.iskcon.net.au/manila/static/kurma/Murwillumbah.jpg or: www.travelmate.com.au/Images/Towns/1723TN.jpg, just so you Sydney people can see a picture or two of my beautiful home. I can't wait to see the green trees and the beach it always recharges me. I do love Sydney but i find i can't stay here for prolonged amounts of time i guess you can take the girl out of the country but you can't take the country out of the girl! Anyway i have to get down to study now got an assignment to write that's due this arvo.

Lxxoo

New Years Eve

Sat, 04 Nov 2006 08:03:37 GMT

I booked in to Woodford Folk Festival (http://www.woodfordfolkfestival.com) for New Years and i am soooooooooooooo excited about it- i have wanted to go for so long. All my plans are working out and i just need to get through the next few weeks and i'm home free, yay for me.

Love to everyone
L xxoo

I hate to whinge again.... but what is LJ for?

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 12:22:32 GMT

I have second semester blues big time, i'm actually just a bit fed up with the whole system. We have to push ourselves so hard to get through this shit and someone is always going to be at the bottom i just get really sick of the whole you must reach such and such a standard to pass but that standard is so variable depending on the lecturer. And guess what people we are not robots we can't just be churning out crap 24-7. I really feel there are flaws in the system when people like my friend K usually get HD's and are now giving up simply because it is just TOO HARD. It's like to have the privilege of expanding our knowledge we have to put ourselves through hell- should it really be like this?

i just feel so sick of the way society works sometimes we have to work so hard to get a job that we probably won't like to try and earn a bit of money to pay off a house which is running us into the ground because of all the god damn interest. Then we have to be slaves in our jobs for years to come because we have to look after the snotty little brats we have acquired on the way. I just don't feel that this kind of life is what humans were meant to be doing. It's all because of that evil little thing called money which is the key to everything and anything in this capitalist world and we are slaves to it (including me.)

I think i really need that summer break....................
Love to my peoples xxoo

Fri, 20 Oct 2006 01:48:55 GMT

I was in a protest yesterday!! It was so cool it was for Thursdays in Black a protest against violence against women, we all wore black and our special shirts with "Thursdays in Black" screen printed on them. The girls all sat in a circle and covered their mouths with a black strip of material to symbolise the silence that coincides with violence. I talked to people and handed out brochures for reclaim the night which is on next friday night in the city- ALL WOMEN SHOULD GO! It was so liberating and great to actually take some action for things i feel so passionate about. One thing i noticed was that it was mostly guys who approached us- which is great in so many ways but it made me sad when so many chicks gave me the dirtiest looks out of everyone. I mean why did they hold so much contempt for women who were just trying to fight for something that affects so many women around the world? I don't know what has happened to women supporting other women- these days it feels like we're all just fighting each other- clambering to get the best outfit, the best man and the best job. Why not work together and help each other out so that we can all get the best out of life? I mean it's hard enough these days to break through that glass ceiling, have the kids look after the house and all the other things we have to do without having to feel like we are fighting against those who we should be fighting with. A friend of mine yesterday made a point that we can't have "sisterhood" anymore because everyone has their own viewpoints and cannot be united under one banner- it just doesn't work. That's fine but why feel angry towards people who do feel passionate about these issues? It makes me sad.......

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 04:23:48 GMT

Hello everyone,
I can see the light at the end of the tunnel! almost to the end of this terrible semester. Is it just me or does second semester always seem harder? I did a french test the other day and no joke i just know i failed it- i am honestly beyond caring. My French teacher expects a ridiculous amount of work for a 2 credit point subject for example on the day of our test she also expected us to do our lesson for the day, plus our vocab list plus a presentation on cheese. For fucks sake that's more than my 4 credit point subject expects. This leads me to bitch about the inconsistency of marking assessments at Uni- my sister recently got an assessment back that she failed. When she went to see the convenor of the subject about it the woman could not tell her where she had gone wrong or why it had happened and even admitted that she hadn't really read it properly! Apparently L failed because she had got the structure wrong but she got the MOST marks for the structure of the paper, huh? She also got another assignment back and got 19 out of 20- This is because she was told exactly what was expected of her to get high marks. Since doing this subject on assessment in education i now realise how unfair most people mark and how most of the time they cannot be objective about it. Another eg of crazy marking at uni was another friend who had handed in an analysis of one of our readings- the teacher lost it, so my friend handed it back in and then didn't hear anyhting about it. He went to go see our lecturer who said he didn't end up marking it yet so my friend gave the paper to him right there. The lecturer looked at it for about 30 seconds (no jokes) looked up and said yeah that's a pass. What tha fuck- that just makes my blood boil. These people are supposed to be doing this for a job. I am so fired up now! why can't these people be held more accountable for the way they mark?

10 things to do before i die

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 21:57:50 GMT

* Travel up through Northen Vietnam and then through China
* Have children
* Have pet dogs
* Live in my dream house
* Drink a bottle of Dom Perignon vintage 1982
* Travel round Oz in a combie van
* Get in touch and get involved with my Hippie roots
* Become a qualified Yoga teacher
* Marry my boyfriend
* Write a book on feminism

Uni blues

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 23:37:17 GMT

I got an assessment back for Hist 359 and i got 8 out of 20- needless to say i am really upset about this and i don't feel like going back to uni ever. It just made me angry because this semester i have been motivated and keeping up much more than last semester and last semester i passed with flying colours and even got a credit. It just doesn't make sense. I really struggled with the essay- the one i wrote about a few weeks ago- and i just don't feel like i have what it takes to do the rest of the subject. I'm not very good with failures i tend to just want to run away and say fuck off to the lot of it. Alas you can't do this in uni and the struggle continues. Neways wish me luck comrades
L

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 01:30:13 GMT

Fun times at Hat Head

Study time...... or is it hammer time?

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 21:58:23 GMT

Ok that hammer time thing was a little random but i'm in a wierd mood!! It's time to get down to the books pull that finger out and work my ass off- yay go me. That hoilday went way too fast i had lots of fun- went camping, partied, went to idol and the not so fun went to work. Oh man i am so broke!! I think i will go and start that study now right after i post a picture of Chris and i at Hat Head.
Namaste

Holiday celebrate

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 22:13:48 GMT

Whoo hoo,
I'm on holidays and i actually managed to get that horrible book review out of the way but man it was bad! Going camping tomoz so won't be updating my journal for a week- you kids have fun while i'm away!! I'm really excited now. I want to say hi to my wonderful friend K who i saw last night and i love, i always have such a fun time with you girl looking forward to catching up at the awards ceremony you smart little shit!!!!!!! Love you all!
L xxoo

Panic

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 21:22:16 GMT

Shit shit shit......
I have a 2000 word essay due tommorrow that i thought was due friday i had it all planned out in my head work on it all day today and tommorrow and fix up the writing friday morning. I'm fucked. Plus this is a 300 level subject and i'm worried i won't write well enough for their standards. Oh man i can't wait for that sweet sweet holiday. Enough from me i gotta get writing.
Namaste